oh eve this has been everything to me truly... <3 i actually cried at the part where you described what love is and feels like, it was painful and difficult to see it worded in such a pulling way while coming out of a similar situation of falling for a friend and it not working out + the insecurity it builds and adds to. i'm trying to cultivate the sense of security in myself and be the 'eye of my own storm' too, and perhaps it was meant to be, perhaps i was meant to experience this to discover these things about myself, perhaps we'll be okay <3
hi tiya <3 i’m glad it resonated with you <3 every other day i shift between this anarchistic nihilism of nothing happens for a reason everything is pure chaos and other days i find solace in believing that the universe put this in my path so i could grow/learn/love better. whatever option, i think we’ll be ok <3
serendipity is a wild thing, because i feel so lucky to have found your substack. i commented on your last post, saying i was going through the same thing, and here i still am. i'm studying photography and suddenly my thesis is about this. i've disregarded everything else i was doing (climate change communication, let's save the world) for a rushed but intense project about how love felt for the first time and what i can do in its wake.
what book did he read to you? i gifted him (my Him) just kids by patti smith, just days before we had our "we should be friends" conversations
... "What will happen to us?" I asked. "There will always be us."
oh adri <33 ive gotten the “there will always be us” response too… and yes/no. yes, there will always be us, but no, not in the same way. your project sounds incredibly interesting!! i’m so curious. sending you love <33
oh eve this has been everything to me truly... <3 i actually cried at the part where you described what love is and feels like, it was painful and difficult to see it worded in such a pulling way while coming out of a similar situation of falling for a friend and it not working out + the insecurity it builds and adds to. i'm trying to cultivate the sense of security in myself and be the 'eye of my own storm' too, and perhaps it was meant to be, perhaps i was meant to experience this to discover these things about myself, perhaps we'll be okay <3
hi tiya <3 i’m glad it resonated with you <3 every other day i shift between this anarchistic nihilism of nothing happens for a reason everything is pure chaos and other days i find solace in believing that the universe put this in my path so i could grow/learn/love better. whatever option, i think we’ll be ok <3
serendipity is a wild thing, because i feel so lucky to have found your substack. i commented on your last post, saying i was going through the same thing, and here i still am. i'm studying photography and suddenly my thesis is about this. i've disregarded everything else i was doing (climate change communication, let's save the world) for a rushed but intense project about how love felt for the first time and what i can do in its wake.
what book did he read to you? i gifted him (my Him) just kids by patti smith, just days before we had our "we should be friends" conversations
... "What will happen to us?" I asked. "There will always be us."
(jokes on me)
the book was “everything i cannot see” by annika norlin. it’s a swedish author but unfortunately i don’t think it’s translated yet!!
(and the “what can i do in its wake?” — such an important and guiding question)
oh adri <33 ive gotten the “there will always be us” response too… and yes/no. yes, there will always be us, but no, not in the same way. your project sounds incredibly interesting!! i’m so curious. sending you love <33
thank you!! sending so much love back. let's be friends!!
This is amazing. You truly have a way with words ❤️
thank you so much simi <3 warms me
fuck <3 i have been exactly where you have been. godspeed